Between Perfectionism, Life and Myself

Hey guys!

If you’re reading this—huge thanks for still being here. I know I kinda abandoned this profile for the past few weeks and didn’t really upload anything noteworthy.

The past few weeks have been… interesting. Ever since my ADHD diagnosis and starting medication, a lot has changed. I’m slowly taking my life back—going out more, hanging out with (the few remaining) friends, and not immediately having a panic attack when I’m in a crowd.

But realizing how much I missed out on all these years without knowing why? Yeah, that hits different. I’m starting to see that I spent so long not really being me but just becoming whatever people expected me to be. And now trying to figure out who I actually am? Oh boy, what a journey.

On top of that, I put so much pressure on myself to level up my stories every time. Deep plot, but also kinky, but also a banger storyline and solid character development?! Add a sprinkle of perfectionism, and suddenly, nothing was ever good enough. I wrote so many pages just to delete them again. Probably another side effect of ADHD—when your brain works differently, and you constantly feel like you’re “not enough,” you try to overcompensate with perfectionism to avoid criticism. Criticism you’ve already heard a million times before. ADHD peeps, you get me. Big love.

Since my life is already in full-on transformation mode, I figured I’d take this as a chance to go back to the roots with my stories too. I just wanna write down my thoughts, fantasies, and weird little brain dumps, share them on DeviantArt, and let you guys in on the ride. Sometimes emotional, sometimes kinky… but without pressuring myself to make it perfect.

Oh, and massive shoutout to the supporter Discord—you guys have heard way too much of my whining, yet you still stick around and make me feel supported. I seriously appreciate you all 🫶🏻

TL;DR: New stories coming soon! Maybe not what you expected, but definitely more me—chaotic, unpredictable, but somehow still lovable. :3